Missing him....

Somehow whenever I talked to him, no matter how bad, things seemed to be alright because he understood and because he was there whenever…With everything getting harder and harder, it seems lonelier and sadder not being able to talk to him.  This past year I have had heartbreaking boy troubles, hurtful family issues, disastrous housing problems, dad being in the hospital over and over, mother pending breast cancer, grandma and uncle dying, multiple family members having cancer, failing school, bad car problems, and losing friends.  I know God is there but sometimes it is nice to have that one person, a human being that you trust the most and who has played an important part in your life, be by your side.  How can you try to make things right between you when that person resents you, how can you miss someone so much when you know that it would never work out between you, and how is it possible to love someone that can’t love you back.